Mom's

The Love Of A Mother Forever Lives On In Your Heart!

Since my Mom's birthday is really near.. I'am dedicating this blog to her.. :) This is quite short but.. yeah.

MOTHER - THE BEAUTIFUL CREATURE 

At the dawn of every life, at the birth of every child,
there is always a joyous thought that brings memories of care,
affection and also pains
and anxiety, but all add up to a poem of Love.

Every human being carries with him or her the seal of this
Love and remembers the maternal tenderness which is
very hard to remove from
the heart.

Over the years, even when our hair turns gray, there remains
the distant memories and the strong desire to see once again Her,
who carries the affectionate name of Mother.
Her name is a fountain of peaceful thoughts, generosity,
serenity and Love.

We always talk nice about our Mother and we always
speak highly of her merits and good guidance and when
She is gone, a veil of sadness surrounds our hearts.

There is a legend that says that since God could not be
physically present amongst all His people at all times,
he created Mothers to take His place.
Looking at the smile on the face of a Mother as she
looks at her baby explains it very clearly.

If we look at Nature we see so much beauty:
the People, the Mountains, the Oceans, Rivers, Trees,
the Flowers, Stars and the Birds....
But the Sun doesn't shine on anyone
more beautiful than you, MOTHERS!

Thanks for filling this World with so much genuine love.
With sincere admiration, love and respect to all of you, Mothers.

-Alfred Grech

*History behind me and my mom*

Well, i'm really unfortunate to see her though then I'am absolutely one of the fortunates who has a mom like her. She is obviously Glenda Piad-de Guzman, and I'am too. They took my name from my mom's name originally. I know you're now asking WHY?

It is because (as stated above) I'am unfortunate to see her because she passed away 3 days after she gave birth to me.. Nah, it is not like what you are thinking.. It's NOT because of me.. No, it isn't. It is because she has a cancer (between her heart and lungs or kidney?? idek) and she was like 50/50.. And I was only 6 months when she gave birth to me. I'm really lucky because she's really brave and strong despite of her status. And i'am proud to say that I'am her daughter.

WHEN YOUR MOTHER DIES
IT IS LIKE SOMEONE CUT A PIECE OF YOUR HEART OUT
WITH A SHARP KNIFE.

Hi Mom, i just want to greet you a Happy happy happy birthdayyyy! I love you so much. I wish you were here to celebrate your special day with us.. I wish you were here to do all the things such as being a mother to your 3 daughters.. Being our bestfriend.. being our adviser and so on.. Even though you weren't here and we haven't had the chance to live together and watch each other grows up. I really want to say thank you. Yea, a very massive thank you for having you as my mom. I'm really grateful and thankful also. You seems really special to us. Specially to me. Even without your presence, i still owe you my everything. I love you Mom! You're the best mom in the woooooooooorld! Happy Birthday!! <3

No matter how old we are, losing a mother

is one of the deepest sorrows a heart can

know, but her goodness, her caring and her

wisdom live on..... like a legacy of love that

will always be with you.

There are moments in life 

when you miss someone so much that 

you just want to pick them from your dreams 

and hug them for real.

"A WONDERFUL MOTHER"

by: Pat O'Reilly

GOD MADE A WONDERFUL MOTHER,
A MOTHER WHO NEVER GROWS OLD;
HE MADE HER SMILE OF THE SUNSHINE,
AND HE MOLDED HER HEART OF PURE GOLD;
IN HER EYES HE PLACED BRIGHT SHINING STARS,
IN HER CHECKS, FAIR ROSES YOU SEE;
GOD MADE A WONDERFUL MOTHER,
AND HE GAVE THAT DEAR MOTHER TO ME.

We cannot forget my mother, She is our bridge.

   The woman who bore me is no longer alive, but I seem to be her daughter in increasingly profound ways.

A daughter is a day brightener and a heart warmer.

A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.

Love + Life = Love-life

Lovelife... Ito ay isang salita na pag nawala o nasaktan ka napaka-laki ng epekto sa'yo. Lahat apektado.. Nakakalungkot mang isipin pero di mo na kailangan laging nakatuon o dumepende sa isang tao. Or dun sa pangyayaring yun. Why don't you love your life instead of bragging your self down? Kaya nga Lovelife eh. Kasi kailangan mo din mahalin yung buhay mo, kailangan mong magtira para sa sarili mo. Hindi yung puro siya lang. Madami ka pang pwedeng gawin sa buhay mo. I-enjoy mo lang! Life has to go on. Wag mong isipin yung mga masasakit at mapapait na karanasan na nangyari sayo noon. Move on friend! =) Marami pang mangyayari, habang lumalaki at tumatanda ka.. Marami pang dadating sa buhay mo. Malay mo di pa ngayon, pero balang araw.. ;) May tao ding magmamahal sayo, yung totoo.Yung laging andyan para sayo. Hindi yung hanggang text lang and social networks kayo nag-uusap. Pero pagdating sa personal, wala. Parang di kayo magkakilala. Mas masarap pa rin sa feeling yung legal kayo, walang butas sa pagitan ninyong dalawa. Yung walang ilangan, lalo pag walang tinatago sa isa't isa. Kung magmamahal ka, dapat dun sa sigurado. Wag dun sa kunwaring mahal ka tapos di naman kayang panindigan. Di ba? Kaya kailangan pag magmamahal ka, wag mong lahatin para di masyadong masakit. Mahalin mo din buhay mo.Mahalin mo sarili mo. Hindi yung porket Love mo siya.. sasabihin mo siya din buhay mo. "Hindi ko kayang mawala ka, mamatay akooo!!" Hahahaha. Walang kwenta. -__-" Magtira ka sa sarili mo. :) Mahalin mo buhay mo, may pamilya at mga kaibigan ka pa. Lalong may Diyos. ;) Wag mong sayangin lahat dahil sa iisang tao.

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Hanngang dito lang po muna. Singit lang to. Hihi. At Computer Laaaaaab! :)x

Lovelife? Bakit nauso pa yun?

Yun na nga marami ang gustong mag bahagi tungkol sa karanasan nila. May iba't-ibang karanasan na siguro tayo tungkol sa pag-ibig. Ako? marami na din akong aral na napulot dahil diyan. Maraming masasayang bagay na din akong naranasan at marami din ang masasakit. Ika nga balanse lang, hindi lahat puro sakit at hirap lang. Ganyan. 

Marami na din akong mga kaibigan na humihingi ng payo tungkol sa pag-ibig. Karamihan ay yung mga sawi sa pag-ibig. Ayaw ko naman mag suggest kung ano ang dapat nilang gawin para malampasan ang paghihirap nila, baka ako naman ang sisihin pag hindi epektib yung suggestion ko. Pero alam naman natin sa panahon ngayon lalo na pag nagda-drama ka sa kaibigan mo. Tapos sasabihin sayo, "Laslas na friend!!"  Okaya naman, "Bigti na friend!" Sarap ilaglag sa bintana eh noh? Hahaha. Seryoso, Tanging gabay at taimtim na dasal lang ang maibibigay ko dyan. Kasi ang bawat tao na dumaranas o nasa impluwensya ng pag-ibig ay may sariling paraan para malampasan nang hirap na pinagdadaanan. Naniniwala ako na walang binigay na pagsubok ang Diyos na hindi natin kayang lampasan.

Siguro ito na lang ang tanging maibabahagi ko sa mga kaibigan ko...

Para sa mga kaibigan kong SINGLE

Ang pag-ibig ay parang isang paru-paru; "The more you chase it, the more it eludes you." Pero kung hahayaan mo lang siyang masayang lumipad, dadapo din yan sayo sa panahon na hindi mo inaasahan. Pero dapat mo din tandaan na hindi lang puro saya ang naidudulot kapag umiibig ka. Minsan makakaranas ka din ng sakit. Ngunit magiging mas masaya ito kung ibibigay mo ang puso mo sa taong karapat dapat. So relax relax ka lang dyan. Take your time and piliin ang tama at worth ng sacrifice mo.

Para naman sa mga kaibigan kong HINDI NA MASYADONG SINGLE

Ang pag-ibig ay hindi tungkol sa kung paano mo umayos at maging perpekto para sa taong mahal mo. Ito ay tungkol sa pagkakaroon mo ng chance na matagpuan ang isang tao na magiging gabay at katulong mo sa pagiging isang mabuting tao. No judgement for who you are but just acceptance and respect. 

Para sa mga kaibigan kong PLAYBOY/PLAYGIRL

Never say never... Lels.. Never say "I love you" if you don't mean it. Wag kang paasa. Wag mong pasukin ang isang relasyon kung ang intensyon mo naman ay saktan ang isang tao. Wag kang mangako kung di mo naman kayang tuparin o ibigay.  Siguro ang pinakamasakit na bagay na gawin ng isang babae o lalaki ay yung paasahin ang isang tao na mahulog sa kanya pero wala naman itong intensyong saluhin kapag nahulog na ito. Sakit nun. Pilay ka na, basag ka pa!

Para dun sa mga WALANG MUWANG SA PAG-IBIG

Nais mo din mailove? Go lang!

Madali lang naman mainlove friend. Simple lang: Mainlove ka, you can fall in love sa kung sino ang nasa puso mo; pero sa oras na dumating ang sakit, wag mong hayaang nakadapa ka na lang. Stand up and move on. And keep loving. Be consistent but not too persistent. Understand your love but never demand. Eventually, love will hurt you but never keep the pain. Let it go and then move on. Yan lang ang rule para makasurvive ka. Good luck!

Para sa mga friends kong BROKEN-HEARTED

Ok, heto na.. Ikaw na to friend!

Sa totoo lang, nasa sayo naman yang sakit na dinadala mo. Nasa sayo yan kung hanggang saan mo ba gusto masaktan. Nasa sayo din yan kung hanggang saan mo ba gusto masugatan at kung gaano kalalim ang sugat na gusto mo. Nasa sariling gusto yan. Kung baga pa trip trip lang yan! Oo! nasaktan ka na, pero may magagawa ka pa after ng sakit. Maari mong gamutin ang sugat. I think ang challenge dito ay HINDI yung kung paano mo malampasan ang sakit at magsimula ulit kundi ano yung lesson na makukuha mo sa sakit na nararamdaman mo at maiapply yan sa buhay mo.

Para naman sa mga TAMEME

Alam mo friend, masakit yung pinaasa ka ng iyong kapareha tapos hiniwalayan ka. O kaya naman may gusto ka sa isang tao tapos medyo landian kayo. Alam mo na. Hahaha, nagbibigay ng motibo tapos hindi ka pala gusto? Sobrang sakit nun. Pero wala nang mas masakit pa sa isang tao na hindi alam ng mahal niya na may gusto siya sa kanya. Kaya kung ako sayo, do the first move. Baka maiwan ka sa byahe o di naman kaya ay maunahan ka ng iba. Ikaw din! Pero nasa sariling diskarte mo yan. Kung kailan ka handa at ready kana sumabak sa relasyon... Go na friend!

At ang huli, para sa mga kaibigan ko na STILL HOPING AND HOLDING ON

Alam mo ang masakit sa pag-ibig, yung makatagpo ka nang isang tao na sa tingin mo makakasama mo habang buhay, binigay mo ang lahat para sa kanya ngunit sa bandang huli ay iiwan at hihiwalayan ka. Parang waste of time, sacrifice and effort lang ba. Mas masakit pa yun sa natuklap mong kuko. Yung sakit na tipong darating kana sa point na umiiyak ka pero walang luha ang tumutulo kasi laway mo ang tumutulo yung puso mo ang umiiyak. Yung tipong nagsusuka ka na sa kakaiyak at di ka na makatulog. Yung tipong gusto mo siyang isumpa na nagkakilala at minahal mo pa siya. Pero mahal mo pa din siya at kahit ano pa ang nagawa niya, kung mag sorry lang siya, patatawarin mo din siya agad-agad.

Kung sa ngayon pa lang ay hindi siya worth sa love mo, hindi siya magiging worth after a year or maybe after 10 years. Ever! Let go na friend.. Move on. Get a life!

Kaya tandaan lang na ang pag-ibig ay isang malaking casino, yung mala Resorts World para bongga! Maraming naglalaro. Maraming manlilinlang. Maraming balakid at maraming tukso. Gaya sa casino kailangan mong tumaya. Hindi sa lahat ng oras panalo ka. Minsan talo ka din. Hindi sa lahat ng panahon nakukuha mo ang gusto mo. Minsan maaagawan ka rin. Pero ang IMPORTANTE ay yung pagtayo mo sa iyong kinauupuan para magsimula ng panibagong buhay para dun sa mga nasaktan. Para naman dun sa panalo sa pag-ibig, ipagpatuloy mo lang yan. Be happy always. Love love love.

Eto pa! Para sa mga kagaya ko! Mga kaibigan kong nasa STATE OF MOVING ON AND LETTING GO.

Chos! Naka-move on na ko, di ko lang siya ma-let go kasi di naman mabilis mawala yung nararamadaman mo sa isang tao lalo na pag totoo talaga. Di ba? Kung ako sayo, just go with the flooooooow. Wag ka nga lang magtatangkang magpakamatay! Nako te! Overflow na yan. Haha. Corny ko. :( Huhu. Sorry na. Last ko na yun, promise. Pero seryoso, wag na wag. Para kang tanga. Dahil lang dun? Maglalaslas ka? Sus, dami-dami diyan. Wag kang dumipende sa isang tao.. Hayaan mo lang yung nararamdaman mo, kasi hindi yan agad-agad mawawala kung hindi ka magmamahal ulit ng iba. (note: Yung totoo ah! Mamaya ginagamit mo lang para maka-move on ka. Nako te, bad yun. Mas lalo kang mahihirapan. Pero may mga cases naman na gumamit sila ng ibang tao para maka-move on. Nag-try sila, pero pag nag-work out edi maganda! Good yun! Pero pag hindi, nako tawagin mo na lahat ng santo na kakilala mo. Bad ka! Manggagamit! Walanghiya ka! CHAROT! Hahahaha.) Balik tayo sa topic, basta wag talaga. As in wag! Hayaan mo lang talaga, hanggang sa mawala yang nararamdaman mo. Kung nahihirapan ka na talaga, bigti na frienddd. Haha, joke. Naiintindihan ko naman yung sakit na nararamdaman mo eh, lalo na pag sobrang na-attached ka dun sa tao. Pero syempre isipin mo na rin yung sarili mo. Isa pa, di lang siya yung lalaki sa mundo na pwedeng magpasaya sayo, mahalin ka, at umalala sayo, bantayan ka, ingatan ka, at umintindi sayo. May mga kaibigan ka na handang tumulong sayo mapa-saya ka lang. At may pamilya ka na nagmamahal sayo. At mas lalong may Diyos na nasa kanya na lahat ng katangian na hinahanap mo, di mo man siya ma-feel physically pero andyan siya para sayo. Lagi, oras-oras, binabantayan ka. Ginagawa lahat mapasaya ka, mahal ka, iniingatan ka at most importantly iniintindi ka. Kahit may pagkukulang ka sakanya. Kaya kailangan mo lang talagang magtiwala at manalig sa Ama. Wag kang mawawalan ng pag-asa. Ituon mo atensyon mo sa ibang bagay, madami kang mare-realize. Alam ko di mawawala yang sakit na yan, pero pag nalibang ka sa ibang bagay. Andyan pa yan, pero di mo na mararamdaman yung sakit. Cheer up! :)x

Take time to read this one and you'll realize something,

“And don't change for a guy, ever," Leah added. "If they're worthy, they'll like you just the way you are.” ~ Along for the Ride by Sarah Dessen

Problem?

Do you have a problem?   Then comment it below, and I'll try to help you. Nah, i won't try. I'll hand a help though. :)  It may not be the best advice I'll try all my best to make you feel better. xoxo

Or if you're really shy to comment it ((because i know you can't be anonymous)) Then feel free to message me on my facebook acct. https://www.facebook.com/glendaadeguzman

Music in every life.

I wrote an essay (for our Speech subject) about my interest/s which is Music.. One and only music.. Joke, I have lots! ;) Well, i chose 'Music' because music is very interesting though music nowadays was a lot different in the 1770’s to 1870’s. Now music is everywhere, but it isn’t the great night-time entertainer it used to be.. Music has changed to suit the needs of the world now. Everyday, a new song comes out to keep our interest fresh, and there are several different genres of music so we can choose the music we like.. In my opinion, modern is much better than its 1775 to 1870’s counter part. It might be just that I grew up with modern music.  It might be that music is now marketed and focused more on the teen to middle age crowd. It might be that modern music, with its fast beat and loudness, is all I can handle with my short attention span.. Music can now be digitally edited to near perfection, and if an artist makes a mistake they can just edit it with a computer. I also think music has gotten better because there’s such a variety of it, and every song you hear will be different. Artists these days can give themselves voice-overs (changes the sound, tone, quality, pitch, or even volume of their voice) which sometimes makes the song even sound even better. Also there is such a tremendous variety of instruments, and each one brings something new to the song.

    Another reason why I think that music is better these days is choice. You can choose what music you want to listen to, and there’s something for everyone.

No matter what music you like, it is an essential part of human culture. Where would we be without it? We use it as a way to show expression, a way to communicate, and we use it as entertainment. And as long as we live, so will music. When life induces too much stress, too much noise and too much rush, it is wondrous to put your headphones on, click play on your favorite playlist and close your eyes, giving way to music. To me, music is more than just a way to relax and take a break. Music is my companion for life, my indicator of mood, my best adviser and my own little world. I would never call music a hobby, as I cannot imagine my life without my favorite music. There is a playlist for when I am sad, for when I am happy, for when I am thoughtful, excited, angry, adventurous or sleepy. Music helps me to cope with the emotions that I experience. Sometimes, music is a way to hide from everything and everyone. Other times, music is the best way to share my feelings with people I care about, or even with complete strangers. Music is the most inspirational phenomena I can think of for a multitude of reasons.

Music is a world of emotions and every time I hear a song I like, it shares some of these emotions with me. Music can bring up the most tender and anxious feelings. It can move you in time and space by bringing back special memories of which you were craving to relish in. There were many cases when music sent shivers down my spine, so honest and strong were the tunes, so powerful the memories they awakened. I am sure it happened to everyone at least once, that a strong memory is somehow linked to a certain song or tune and whenever you hear it playing, you travel back to that situation in your thoughts, able to experience that it again.

We sometimes forget how powerful music is and how inspirational its power can be. In addition, music is able unite people like nothing else can because you both have mutual interests in music.  But what about those cases when people have nothing in common and are total strangers, yet they suddenly find themselves singing along and dancing together, or simply silently listening to captivating beats. Music is able to make complete strangers feel like they have connected to a kindred soul. If you have at least once been to a great live concert or album launches, you probably know what kind of inspiration I am talking about. It is difficult to describe this phenomenon with words, but is it not what proves again the power of music to inspire? You do not need to speak a foreign language to connect to somebody from a different background, using music instead of words. Music comes in handy in just these cases. It inspired you to make new friends or learn more about a foreign culture. Music is multi-dimensional – you can never get bored of it. While I have a number of favorite artists and bands, I also never stop exploring the musical amplitude and discovering new performers every day. Music adds flavor to my life and this flavor is different depending on ‘what dish I am eating.’ Though music is nothing new, the creation of new melodies, rhythms, and symphonics will be created every day. In fact, I believe that music has been around us for as long as we have existed.  When I say that music is everywhere, I first of all mean that music comes from nature. Music in all of its forms is around us and the task is only to notice it and learn to appreciate how it can be shared. Music can be a source of inspiration for almost anyone. Music has the power to make us want to smile at every stranger walking by, simply because we are hearing a transcendent song.

I chose this picture because I believed that Music comes from nature...

Guy Bestfriend

We all know that every girl deserves a guy best friend. Someone who will hug me tight when I'm down. Someone who will beat up the guys who hurt me. Someone who knows every single detail about me. Someone who makes me laugh, until I cry. Someone who I can be myself with. Someone who won't cause so much fucking drama. Someone to be there for me no matter what, like in this example situation..
*imagine*
Me: Hey, he broke up with me.
Guy bestfriend: Don't worry, i'm coming. You know I'll do anything for you just to make you smile. So cheer up!
Me: I love you bestfriend.
Guy bestfriend: I love you more, bitch. Stop crying now, I'm on my way.

Guy bestfriend is when something happens, he's the one you want to tell first. He's not afraid to tell you when you are with the wrong guy. He's the first one you call when things are going wrong. He's the first one there when you need a shoulder to cry on. When you imagine your perfect guy, you see him in your mind. Your friends also wonder why you and him aren't together yet. He'll be your back-up date for formal, in case something goes wrong with the 'jerk' you are talking.  He knows when things aren't right, no matter how many times you lie using the words 'I'm fine.'. He gives you amazing advice on guys, 'coz duh? Who knows them better though? He is amazing in every single way and treats you the way you ought to be treated.
I want a guy bestfriend who will treats me really special even we teases each other really hard. A bestfriend who will like my photos on facebook, commenting them saying things such as the fact that He's proud to have me as a bestfriend.

Bryan Wency Chong ganda ng BESTFRIEND ko eh! 

One that I can call up, crying about other boys and him saying he'll beat the shit out of them for me. A guy bestfriend who will drive me around like he's my big brother, and kiss me on my cheek or forehead when he knows I'm upset. Ones who become friends with my boyfriend ((if there is. lol)) and one who calls me up to see what am I doing. I want a guy bestfriend who will tell me when I'm wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a perfect guy bestfriend, who will love me and protect me from all the other boys.

That's why having a guy bestfriend that you are super close with is the very special and good feeling ever. A boy and a girl can be just friends but eventually one of them will fall for the other. Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time. Maybe too late, or maybe.. just maybe, Forever...

Still on the other hand, having a guy bestfriend is really special than having a boyfriend. The one who will say...

But we know, there's one common problem on having a guy bestfriend. You might fall in love with him, or he might fall in love with you. Being in love with your best friend has to be the best and worst feeling in the world. Do you tell them and risk losing them? Or do you suffer in silence and pretend your happy when they meet the next person…

Here, this song "A Boy and A Girl by Kayla Hang" fits exactly to those who has guy bestfriend..

I just realized why am I searching for a guy bestfriend.. I have lots of guy friends who's really willing to give a hand on me. The one who will give me a hug, the one will let me punch their arm. The one who's really free when I need someone to talk to. I want to enumerate them all. Because I'am really freakin proud to have them.

Bryan Wency Chong - my eversince childhood bestfriend, my first love. Hahahaha. Lol.

Sebastian Louis Yago - Hi be, alam mo na kung ano yung na-contribute mo sa pagkatao ko. Naks. Hahahaha. Love you be. :3

Kenneth Baldazo - the one will say, "Yaan mo na yan be. Madami pa diyan."

 James Quizon - AY. WHO YOU? Hahaha. Joke. Thank you Tay for the comforts.

Paulo Ganahan and Benz Ramos - Ayy ito talaga! Hi be! Thank you for letting me punch you when I'm totally in burst.

Marvin Buco, Dave Sison - Thank you! Especially you, Buco! Hahaha. Thank you for making me laugh by using your teeth. Your teeth were the best joke ever! Lol, kidding.

And etc. Sorry guys. :( Di ko na matandaan. Basta sa puso't isipan ko, super  thankful ako to have you all. I love you guys!!! xx

I'm broken.. do you hear me?

So my friend told me to make a blog about this. -_-"
Broken Heart is never easy, and it's always terrible, so it is called broken..

This blog post is dedicated for those who are broken hearted : you will get better, as i do right now.

Suddenly today I'm overwhelmed with emotion all over again. I can't seem to get you out of my head this morning, the pain is almost unbearable again, why am I feeling like this today? I thought I was okay, I am, but today brings many thoughts of you and much as I try to control it, I can't! It's tough because I know you are not even giving me a second thought. I'm so disappointed at how you have treated me but I guess you showed me the real you eventually, The you who treats someone he's supposed to love as though they were something he stepped in. The you who I was there for when nobody else was and who easily forgot that when in mattered the most. Why did he suddenly just stop caring, I find it impossible that he ever actually truly loved me because if he did, you don't just forget about someone, after all I had thought about him a lot and he never left my mind. So many things had happened, I had been through so much, much of it not good and the one person I wanted to share it with or to talk to was him. I didn't want to feel that way but as someone who guarded my emotions well and shared nothing, he changed that. I went from saying nothing to sharing everything and then when I no longer had him around to share things with...nothing again! I confided in my best friend, other friends and appreciated having them but I missed our bond, it was different. A sense of sadness overcame me; at such a young age I was distressed that such a thought or emotion was already present in this precious young life. But honestly, I knew exactly how that felt, I was feeling a pain, experiencing a hurt that truly, I only wanted one person to notice - someone you cared about so much and provided so much for could easily walk away and turn their back on you. It was a harsh reality but people were increasingly selfish the more selfless you were...why? So whilst I lay here consumed in my pain and my emotions once again like so many times before, the right person wasn't concerned, effectively the right person didn't or wasn't asking me what was wrong...he simply didn't care. But its okay, I did none of these things out of a sense of duty, it's just who I am and that was the difference between you and I. No matter what you put me through, I remained true, and was still there for you. 

And to those experience this broken heart thing. I know you’re upset about him. It’s okay, be upset, cry, scream into your pillow till you think you’ve lost your voice. But looking back on this stupid boy who broke your heart in the future, you’ll laugh at him, Laugh because he thought he was doing the right thing at the right time. Turns out he wasn’t because he lost something amazing. And you’ll thank him. Thank him for making you stronger, and to say to hell with him, I’m great. But most importantly you’ll appreciate what he did, because without him leaving you wouldn’t have time to search for the deserving person right now.

But still, sometimes I still wonder why things happened the way they did. I think that, finally, I’m getting over you.. letting go of you properly. It’s strange.. but it finally seems to be happening. I used to think it was impossible, but now it doesn’t anymore. You will always be special to me, but those feelings I had are slowly going to fade away until they’re a mere bittersweet memory. It’s sad, because what I felt for you was really special, but it’s obviously for the best. At least now I can be around you without it being awkward. Can we just be good friends? I’ll be happy with that. I know, It's really good to love someone so much, then suddenly you'll get hurt. I don't know how people survive this. Honestly, i don't. I've been in heart breaks but still my heart chooses to love that person over and over again. Maybe i’d rather not let go and move on. maybe i’d rather hold on to this hurt i feel than to be out there in the world meeting all the people who do not even come close to who you are. maybe it’s not worth the disappointment. and you can call me a coward for thinking this, but i think it’s dangerous to let go for i might love you more fiercely when i step back into this room and realize there’s nobody out there quite like you. I hate forcing myself to let go of a person that I want in my life. It is the only thing that makes sense but at the same time, it is the same thing that complicates me. I know that I am better off without that person yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go. So now I ask, is emptiness better than pain?

*sighs*

"If you find yourself in love with someone who doesn’t love you, be gentle with yourself."

There’s nothing wrong with loving someone, i know. It’s just that love didn’t choose to rest on the other person’s heart. If you find someone in love with you whom you don’t love, feel honored coz his love has knocked on your door. But gently refuse the gift which you can’t return. If you find yourself in love with someone who loves you too, but love chooses to leave, don’t try to reclaim it or assess blame. Let it go. Remember, you don’t choose love. Love chooses you. Love has its own time, own season, own meaning, own reason for coming and going.

BE YOURSELF, LIFE HAS TO GO ON. Everything's going to be alright, so cheer up! :)